Tonight I remembered all those lessons learned. Some lessons learned were bitter chapters of my life when I had very little control of my emotions. Many of these lessons where things that I did to myself foolishly because I was gullible about life and the whole "Happy Happy joy joy" mentality. Some lessons actually sucked because people got hurt, I made a donkey out of myself, hurt friends and family.

I agree that there is a plan that God has in our lives but I also see in many passages in the word that you and I are given something called FREE WILL! God has already determined many things in my life but not everything. I remember Moses was crying out to God for help yet God didn't come down and fix the situation! NO! God gave him the staff! Ex 4:2-3

This morning I read a simple passage that meant so much which was in 1 John 4:18 where it says "There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment.

But he who fears has not been made perfect in love" have you ever been afraid of something and it has tormented you? It's horrible!!! Sometimes we make mistakes in life were we end up so fearful of the consequences! What will my parents think? What will my friends think? How am I gonna get out of this one? How am I gonna face this storm? How will I survive?Like in that passage in Luke 21:26 " Men's hearts failing them from the fear and the expectation of those things which are coming on the earth..." But then the Lord took me to that night on the boat in Mark 4:37 when a huge windstorm came as they were on the water.